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The Banyan Dissertation

by River Runner

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Where is my way out? The golden opportunity is so unknown My soul is trapped in the clouds Make light of every situation that unfolds, that unfolds I want to break through this cold daze Whether or not I’m besieged by broken thoughts Look at the way we’ve been struggling To make sense of this I want to break through this cold daze Whether I make it out alive Is another story This is my finest hour Defined in all its glory Find the unknown Find comfort in the unknown And set your life ablaze We are not your experiment Set your life ablaze Search for your comfort when it’s all unknown It’s just enough to help you grow
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This is all we’ve ever known You shouldn’t stick around too long It’s all that we’ve been told We’re rushing into the unknown If I could ask for something better I would But our circumstances are understood It would be simple if we learn to command our souls Let’s just stay right here All we want is love So why do we separate? This reality we create This is all we’ve ever known You shouldn’t stick around too long It’s all that we’ve been told We’re rushing into the unknown If I could ask for something better I would But our circumstances are understood
3.
Is this where we, we fall apart? I can barely see to the start The cycle begins again with another thought Moving me through an infinite loop of time The end is in sight, but another thought pulls me back to the start I will escape Blech All of these parts moving to create this reality Move with the thoughts swimming through your brain They will all dissipate Take a look at our creation It seems as though it’s wearing thin Would you just take a look at our creation? It seems as though it’s wearing thin
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Comfort 03:57
It’s not my intention To let the earth fall away To let the earth fall away Take your time, don’t let your mind spill Gotta find a way to let the earth stand still Go back you where you’re from We’re all too young to let you get your own fill This is the crux of the moment And now it’s all fucking broken Now and then in my head I’m thinkin’ ‘bout how we don’t really know shit I wanted the present But all I got was envy of the past This room is a prison I’m sitting here just looking through the glass This is not the time or place to make a decision I don’t know what is right or wrong and I feel so inefficient I just can’t handle the stress and the pain and self loathing anymore Why is it so hard to pay attention to living? We’re just so caught up in the future and it’s so unforgiving Can we just breath in the here and the now and take comfort anywhere I wanted the present But all I got was envy of the past This room is a prison I’m sitting here just looking through the glass
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Walking around in circles endlessly I can’t seem to think of the time too rationally This place just holds me down We feel so numb and cold Each and every passing day Will you just let me be Will you just fucking let me be These thoughts, they grow so old Everything gets thrown our way This is just where we’re meant to be This is just where we’re meant to be Let go of this burden This tension is too much to bear Release all apprehension In the end we have to let ourselves be Walking around in circles endlessly These thoughts they grow so old It will find us when we’re least expecting All of the things we promise ourselves
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Where is your compass? Can you move forward Let go of the past Take a little time To feel the weight Your decisions float free Out of primordial dust The path is revealed Talkin’ bout the self I’m in the know Everybody gotta try to let that shit go But they can’t though Cause honestly it’s a mess and I’m leavin’ so Bet This is not a revelation This is an oration Merely giving meaning to your palms Can you get yourself from here to the citadel with no alms No compass? Where is your compass? Can you move forward Let go of the past
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Swaying 02:02
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Every day I’m stuck in my dreams It’s getting older every hour, but I don’t want to let go Just coexist with the means Because the end is getting farther away How can I put into words The things of which I speak This anguish consumes my process With every breath that we take We’re losing our precious time But I don’t want to let go Every day I’m stuck in my dreams It’s getting older every hour, but I don’t want to let go Just coexist with the means Because the end is getting farther away

about

I’m a self-producing multi-instrumentalist. I lose myself in creating music; I hope that others can lose themselves in it just as much. This album contains the last year of my life wrapped up into a crisp LP, a project that I’ve put infinite time and energy into materializing out of nothing. It explores moving forward into the unknown and dealing with all of the countless variables that confront us everyday; relationships, love, fear, loneliness, oneness. Pay attention - these things are important.

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released December 21, 2018

Instruments/Vocals//Production/Mixing/Mastering - Ian Mitchell
Album Art - Andrew Bruening

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