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Fear & Convalescence

by River Runner

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Impatience takes its toll Another year goes by, devoured This is but an onus, comin’ from the depths Of a solitary state, goin’ overboard Fallin’ into place, it’s over Brace yourself for the only road worth taking You sold your soul and now the body’s forsaken Friction comin’ from the soul and the outside Sordid genuflections to the darkest of your days Another fold in the envelope to send you on your way Through hollow drops of molten rocks Confined and locked away from shallow games Brace yourself for the only road worth taking You sold your soul and now the body’s forsaken
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Carbon 04:21
(Find a way out) I was distorting the time To find a way out It’s all mea culpa Hug the ground in humble hope from hollow bites from the cobra He’s sendin’ you some love between the pain and the poison To the edge of all your skin until you run out of life force Drain away the fabled language It’s all right, you were goin’ down again Breath it out, gotta release the blocks and let go of the venom Dissolve my effortless intentions Words comin’ out of you like it’s the end of the world To find a way out It’s all mea culpa Hug the ground in humble hope from hollow bites from the cobra He’s sendin’ you some love between the pain and the poison To the edge of all your skin until you run out of life force Drain away the fabled language
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We were so strung out By the light and the dark They polarize while the soul weeps heavily Torn from the eyes of the sublime This is the only way to roll away the time To cultivate the mind Sorting through just to implicate the lies Dissolving everything I commit to the vision despite the fluff and derision No I don’t earn a commission, but I don’t ask for a dime It’s all comin’ down anyway so we can just stay alive Sometimes I hope I’m gone and never coming back To wake up without the spirits pulling on my neck So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival This is all we have left Because you trade away the mind For thoughts devoid of love and pride Bereft of seminal changes, it’s hard to maintain it The anger bubbles up inside And then explodes into your life It’s hard to contain it, but who are we blaming? So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival And so you sold away the change to play the games that last But what am I asking? It’s all distracting from the meaning to grasp I’m filled with regret and shame, but that too shall pass Covered in scars, bruised and bleeding Endlessly grieving for the plasmic ash But the lies are receding, how do we even Hope for something else? Maybe it’s better if there’s nothing left Bereft of seminal changes, who are we blaming? Constant haranguing of the tepid self We were always looking inward for the higher self But it’s way out of here, so we’re comin’ back down It’s a little bit tough with a raw deal But it’s all right again
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Run Away 05:33
We were so strung out By the light and the dark They polarize while the soul weeps heavily Torn from the eyes of the sublime This is the only way to roll away the time To cultivate the mind Sorting through just to implicate the lies Dissolving everything I commit to the vision despite the fluff and derision No I don’t earn a commission, but I don’t ask for a dime It’s all comin’ down anyway so we can just stay alive Sometimes I hope I’m gone and never coming back To wake up without the spirits pulling on my neck So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival This is all we have left Because you trade away the mind For thoughts devoid of love and pride Bereft of seminal changes, it’s hard to maintain it The anger bubbles up inside And then explodes into your life It’s hard to contain it, but who are we blaming? So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival And so you sold away the change to play the games that last But what am I asking? It’s all distracting from the meaning to grasp I’m filled with regret and shame, but that too shall pass Covered in scars, bruised and bleeding Endlessly grieving for the plasmic ash But the lies are receding, how do we even Hope for something else? Maybe it’s better if there’s nothing left Bereft of seminal changes, who are we blaming? Constant haranguing of the tepid self We were always looking inward for the higher self But it’s way out of here, so we’re comin’ back down It’s a little bit tough with a raw deal But it’s all right again
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We were so strung out By the light and the dark They polarize while the soul weeps heavily Torn from the eyes of the sublime This is the only way to roll away the time To cultivate the mind Sorting through just to implicate the lies Dissolving everything I commit to the vision despite the fluff and derision No I don’t earn a commission, but I don’t ask for a dime It’s all comin’ down anyway so we can just stay alive Sometimes I hope I’m gone and never coming back To wake up without the spirits pulling on my neck So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival This is all we have left Because you trade away the mind For thoughts devoid of love and pride Bereft of seminal changes, it’s hard to maintain it The anger bubbles up inside And then explodes into your life It’s hard to contain it, but who are we blaming? So sophisticated are the ways that you let yourself down There’s always a place and time for reprisal Choosing just to live under the reign of a crown With nothing left but defiance for survival And so you sold away the change to play the games that last But what am I asking? It’s all distracting from the meaning to grasp I’m filled with regret and shame, but that too shall pass Covered in scars, bruised and bleeding Endlessly grieving for the plasmic ash But the lies are receding, how do we even Hope for something else? Maybe it’s better if there’s nothing left Bereft of seminal changes, who are we blaming? Constant haranguing of the tepid self We were always looking inward for the higher self But it’s way out of here, so we’re comin’ back down It’s a little bit tough with a raw deal But it’s all right again
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These smoldering embers in my mind’s eye radiating Rippling outward to extremities unknown If seeing is believing, I’ve seen but fear the worst The illusion gathering, being, unrivaled and collective Collecting thoughts spiraling, tumbling Vapid intellectual grumbling, contrarily humbling There is no such thing as an answer Pondering the vibes, the infinite but exhaustive time Confronting boredom despite busy days Alternatively capacious, this room is spacious But crowded with my projections I elect to live or die to escape these institutions A solution etched into my DNA Yet hopeless wandering, soullessly groveling At the feet of an egregious wizard Staring to the fissure, the abyss You cannot wish back the time, it is merely a distraction Dissolving the days into fractions functioning, friction slipping Fractals protracting, sauntering Nature will always have the last laugh Looking death in the eye as a lover Minus enmity and delusion, neuroses and confusion I have been there, in the head of another Free-falling from the precipice but losing access To worlds unknown Giving in to the future but not giving up Allowing the path to unfold like a dusty carpet Cracked and crumbling constantly The beyond beckons, willingly bellowing Conjecture circling numbly until I can feel the tingles Mingling with pins and needles, sensations ancestral Vestral in their celestial forthcoming It’s time for some prolonged silence If you’re really there, that is If you’re really there
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released April 2, 2021

Recorded, mixed, and mastered in Beachwood, OH
By Ian Gabriel Mitchell

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